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| DREAM ((Night of September 27th, 2007))
It all happened so quickly and it was really disturbing.
I was in a dark room with some random elderly man. He was alone and didn't seem to know that I was there.
I was just standing there watching him.
Out of nowhere, this person came in the room and started yelling at the old man and beating on him.
"Leave me alone!" The old man screamed, but the person continued hurting him.
I felt like I should do something but I didn't know what to do.
"NO! STOP! NO!!!!!" I screamed as loud as I could.
Neither of the people seemed to hear me.
To my horror, the old man started puking up blood.
"You know what happens to me! Stop it!" the old man begged.
"I DON'T CARE WHAT HAPPENS! BLEED! BLEED!!!" the other person screamed at him.
I fell onto my knees in tears, "Stop...stop..." I begged quietly to myself.
The room disappeared and I was alone somewhere, and it wasn't really clear where I was.
I was wearing a long black dress and I was very pale (to the point of glowing...).
I was on the floor, crouched over still.
I was crying.
"Where have I gone?... Who is this?" I was asking myself random confused questions.
And then I saw my wrists. They were cut open.
"No...no...this can't be who I was." I said in my tears.
Then that's when I started puking up my own blood.
I lost control.
"IT WAS LOVE!!!" I screamed to the sky, throwing my wet (with blood and tears) hair back, "WHERE AM I!? IM DEAD! IM DEAD! IM GONE!!! TO YOU! TO EVERYONE!"
The tears poured down as blood from my eyes.
"PLEASE! SAVE WHO I WAS! IM STILL THERE!" I continued screaming.
I was about to rip my wrists open again until I woke up.
- Mood:numb
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| Dream~ Night of Sept. 25th, 2007
I was on an island. It was tropical. There was a beach there that I've dreamed of a few times before. The last time I dreamed of it, I was alone in the deep side of the water and a shark was trying to eat me.
So in this dream, I was inside a hotel-type place. There was an indoor pool with a huge window facing the ocean. I was in the pool and there were lots of other people too. I didn't really know anyone else. The people there with me were just random people I've seen or met once or something. I dove under the water and glided through the water, expecting to be stepped on or something but nothing happened.
It was the evening and there was a pink/orange sunset. It was humid. I wanted to get out and go outside. So I did.
I got out of the pool and I saw some lady crying in the corner. I don't know why she was crying and I hate my dream-self for just walking passed her and not even bothering to help...
I ended up alone on the beach.
I had a laptop and was online talking to people.
I guess it was around Christmas time or something...idk it seemed like it cause they were playing christmas music but it was still tropical-ish.
Anyway, I was online and one of my friends IMed me first. (not saying his name).
"I miss you..." he said online.
"Oh. =/" was all I said back, like I didn't care.
"I think I'm gonna go into the ocean." I said to him.
"ok, leave something there for me." he said (I know, doesnt make sense...)
"Ok. goodbye." I said, but then added, "I love you."
He signed off without saying it back and my heart sank and I was fighting back tears.
I signed off and put my laptop aside.
I walked up to the shore of the ocean.
All alone.
The sky was still lit up with colors.
I could feel a knife in my hand...
Staring at the sunset helped me not to cry.
"Into the ocean..." I whispered to myself.
My whisper seemed to echo through the quiet island of my dream.
"End it all..." a voice whispered back to me.
I moved forward into the water and swam towards the sun, knife still in my hand.
I woke up.
- Mood:blah
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| DREAM -Night of Sept.22,2007-
I had a few dreams last night but I'm going to tell you about only one because I want to keep the rest to myself.
The dream was pretty short but it was fun.
I was with my friend Kristen Keakly [or however u spell her last name!! lol] and we were outside in an open field. There were alien space ships in the air and there were red lazors and yellow beams shooting down from them in the sky.
Kristen seemed to be laughing at it all.
There were people running around screaming and trying to run away from the yellow beams (which sucked you up into the spaceship if u got struck by one). Getting hit by a red lazor just killed you.
"Hey, weren't we talking about this on aim last night?" Kristen asked me.
I took hold of her arm and pulled her aside from a red lazor.
"Yeah...I think so...weird..." I said.
An old lady who was running around frantically got sucked up by a yellow beam.
"MOVE! RUN!" I grabbed Kristen again and dodged to the side, pulling us both away from a yellow beam.
"Banana phonnne!" Kristen sang.
I looked at her with a blank stare, "This isn't really a good time to sing..." I said smacking her on the arm.
She just smiled at me and continued singing.
I left her behind and ran at top speed down the field, dodging all the lazers and beams coming at me.
Then the dream faded into another one.
- Mood:indescribable
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| Dream {Sept.21,2007}
I was in school, but it looked kinda different from how LC really looks. I was bored so I decided to just get up and walk out of the classroom and roam the halls. Well lucky for me, I stepped out of the classroom and there were about 4 gangster people standing there. I was alone with them and there didn't seem to be any authority figures around. Actually it didn't seem like there was anyone else in the school besides me and them.
I stood there watching them and what was going on.
There was a girl gangster and she was holding a hand gun out.
Out of nowhere, someone grabbed my hands and pulled them behind my back.
"Ow! What the f---??" I screamed trying to jerk myself free. Nothing worked. The guy's grip on me was too hard.
My heart sunk because I felt the cold metal of the gun against the side of my head.
The gangster girl was glaring at me, holding the gun to my head. She looked over at another gangster guy and said, "Do you want me to kill her?"
I looked over at the other gangster guy with pleading eyes, "No! Please! No!"
"Go ahead," the other gangster said, "I don't know her."
"WAIT!---I bet that gun isn't even loaded!" I said smirking at the girl holding the gun to me.
"You wanna bet?" She glared at me. She pointed the gun at the ceiling and shot it. Sure enough, there was a huge boom and now there was a giant hole in the ceiling.
The gun was loaded.
'Shit...' I thought to myself.
The gun was aimed at my head again.
I closed my eyes.
And woke up.
- Mood:bored
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| MY FEET ARE COLD!!!! D=
So yeah, anywayys...
Today I went to go see FIDDLER ON THE ROOF in Munster. It was pretty amazing. I love plays there. When I'm old enough [like, I think next year I will be.] I want to audition for a play there. Yeah, so, that was a really good play. I like seeing plays. In a way, I think watching other people act improves my acting. Because you get so many different examples of how to act in certain situations by watching other actors.
=)
Arggh I read an EQUUS review by Paige of DanRadcliffe.co.uk and it made me so much more disappointed that I can't go see it cause it's in London. It sounds like a really good play. If you get passed all the sex stuff and nakedness, it seems like a really moving play. And I bet Daniel has done such a wonderful job portraying the character of Alan Strang. And i guess in the begining part of the play, Dan as Alan is singing a song and Paige said he has a pretty good singing voice. I wish I could hear him sing. Sometimes I even imagine how his voice sounds when it sings and when it's carrying a tune. I love his voice. I've grown so used to it. I memorized how it sounds with its vibrating tone. It's powerful and yet so gentle.
And not seeing him in the play is like not going to see a movie that he stars in. Aside from me being one of his biggest fans, he's truely my idol and he's my inspiration. He's helped me become who I am right now.
He also grew a beard because of the play... WHICH BETTER GET SHAVED OFF ONCE THE PLAYS OVER!
*ahem ahem*
Sorry...
- Mood:good
 - Music:"Sir Duke" -Stevie Wonder
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| woooooooooooooooooooooo. So I just saw some steaming new pictures of Daniel Radcliffe. Lemme post some:  Super Dan... DUD DUD DUD DUH DUD DUUUUH!!!  Rawwwwr! [poor horse dude looks like he's gonna fall face forward]  Funny looking grin that scares me...  Insert me in that lady's place. =)  Dan and a fag. I LOOOOOOVE HIMMMM. yess thats my future husband riiight there! mhmmm. how do i know? BECAUSE I'M PSYCHIC THAT'S WHY!!--and my heart tells me so. ^_^ <333 - Mood:flirty
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